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I have come to call myself Sage Starwalker, a name that's both a mouthful and a challenge to live up to, but when you ask for a name, and the Goddess gives you one .... I started the Goddess Mystic web site as a record of my early priestess studies. I'm in my last year of Temple of Diana's Spiral Door program. I'm an eternal student and have no plans to change that. I've accepted the identifier "disabled," but fibromyalgia and osteoarthritis haven't completely stopped me. I have a home-based web design business. My ministry consists of publishing MatriFocus Cross-Quarterly (a zine); developing Matrifocus [dot] Net to bring voices of the Goddess Movement to the blogosphere; teaching; peer counseling; dream interpretation; performing rites of passage and doing divination work for community members; Saturn and Chiron Return chart casting and interpretation; and web activism. My personal practice consists of contemplative arts and natural magic within Goddess, Pagan, Women's Mysteries, and Dianic Wiccan frameworks. I'm a member of the Goddess Scholars Group, the Conflict Transformation Group, and Womonsong. I'm looking to find more time for crochet, beading, and other art-making. Want to know more? Read 100 Things About Me

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Goddessing is a recent contribution to Goddess vocabulary, following on from Mary Daly's suggestion that Deity is too dynamic, too much in process, changing continually, to be a noun, and should better be spoken as a Verb (following Buckminster Fuller's "God is a verb"). We can refer to goddessing meaning Goddess culture, Goddess way of life, Goddess practice, or 'my goddessing' as in my individual interpretation and experience of Goddess. (Wikipedia)
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  • Wednesday, September 28, 2005

    Goddess Quotes: Thought 


    In the beginning was thought, and her name was Woman. The Mother, the Grandmother, recognized from earliest times into the present among those peoples of the Americas who kept to the eldest traditions, is celebrated in social structures, architecture, law, custom, and oral tradition. To her we owe our lives, and from her comes our ability to endure, regardless of the concerted assaults on our, and Her, being, for the past five hundred years of colonization. She is the Old Woman who tends the fires of life. She is the Old Woman Spider who weaves us together in a fabric of interconnection. She is the Eldest God, the one who Remembers and Re-members; and though the history of the past five hundred years has taught us bitterness and helpless rage, we endure into the present, alive, certain of our significance, certain of her centrality, her identity as the Sacred Hoop of Be-ing. (p. 11, "The Ways of Our Grandmothers," Paula Gunn Allen, The Sacred Hoop, Recovering the Feminine in American Indian Traditions)


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    Thursday, September 22, 2005

    Live Broadcast: Second World Congress on Matriarchal Studies 


    I just received the best news I've had in awhile. I'd have gone to the First World Congress on Matriarchal Studies in Luxembourg in 2003 if my disabilities didn't make long-distance travel impossible. Likewise, the second one coming up shortly in Texas. But now I have a very good second-best. A live web broadcast of the conference:

    Second Congress on Matriarchal Studies.

    If you can't come to this great conference you can still listen real time!! Live webcast on FIRE at www.fire.or.cr

    FIRE- Feminist International Radio Endeavour - will present a daily live streaming event of the Conference following the scheduled presentations.

    All you need to listen to the webcast is a computer with Real Audio (free) program, speakers and a sound card already in your computer.

    You can also record the conferences with a simple tape recorder in order to listen to the webcasts on your own time or rebroadcast them on radio.

    Katerina Anfossi and Maria Suarez, FIRE (Webcast info via Marguerite Rigoglioso)

    You might ask: Matriarchy? Isn't that just patriarchy in skirts? The answer: No! Here's the current thinking on the term:

    The term Matriarchy is a reproduction from that 19. Century and corresponds etymologically to designations such as monarchy, hierarchy, patriarchy, etc. (From Greek mêtêr "mother" and archê "beginning, origin", later also "rule").

    Although most anthropologists associate the term Matriarchy with the work of J.J. Bachofen or L.H. Morgan, it was used for the first time by E.B. Taylor (1896) in an article with the title "The Matriarchal Family system". Bachofen used the term "Gynaikokratie" (from Greek. gyne "woman" and kratos "to rule, prevail") in the sub-title of its German issue of "The Motherright" (Das Mutterrecht, 1861). In the English edition this was translated however falsely with "matriarchy".

    In English-language countries, in particular the USA, the term matriarchy is understood therefore until today as "woman's rule", and not only by laymen, but also by outstanding encyclopedias, as for instance the Encyclopedia Britannica, and also by reference books in other languages, even Germans.

    When internationally the first ethnologists and scholars of matriarchal studies began to learn about peoples who showed matrilocality and matrilineage they drew falsely the conclusion that mothers are rulers, on the one hand because of the translation error, and in addition, in similarity to their own patriarchal culture.

    The modern studies of matriarchy corrected this misunderstanding in the German-speaking countries in the sixties 20. Century and investigates since then this field. The first world congress for Matriarchal studies took place 2003 in Luxembourg.

    In the international science discourse the term matriarchy is maintained, although sometimes it is misconstrued as "mother's rule" or "woman's rule"; both never existed in accordance to today's state of research.

    Today Matriarchy is used in the sense of "motherly beginning" as a beginning of a cycle, because these societies are coined by cyclic thinking unlike linear.

    Replacements as gylanic, matrilinear, matrilocal, matrifocal, egalitarian etc. instead of matriarchal are problematic, because

    * first of all thereby only several characteristics of matriarchal societies are taken into account and not this social order as whole.
    * Secondly these reducing terms are used to deny the existence of matriarchal societies and are unfit therefore.

    It is important to fill and correctly use the term Matriarchy
    with error free and unmistakable contents. (The Term Matriarchy)


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    Wednesday, September 21, 2005

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    Monday, September 19, 2005

    Spirituality Quote: Science and Cosmology 


    No one who wants to understand the world 'can ignore the basic insights of theories as key as evolution, relativity and quantum mechanics.' (George Johnson's partial quote from His Holiness the Dalai Lama's newest book — The Universe in a Single Atom: The Convergence of Science and Spirituality)

    The book review quoted above centers around the subtitle of the book — The Convergence of Science and Spirituality — and the reviewer's concerns that another spiritual leader might be "attempting to contort biology to fit a particular religion," as happens so frequently with Christian apologetics.

    The reviewer is heartened by these words from His Holiness:

    If scientific analysis were conclusively to demonstrate certain claims in Buddhism to be false, then we must accept the findings of science and abandon those claims.

    My experience of neopagan Paganism has been that it is a science-friendly religion. Indeed, I can't imagine that a nature-based religion could be anything other than science-positive. Yes, "science" has its limitations, both in what it can and can't measure and in its biases. Even so, our various spiritual technologies could benefit from a clear-headed review in the light of what science has taught us about cosmology and the nature of matter and reality.

    If we in our traditions were to look honestly at our various doctrines about magic and cosmology in light of what the sciences have to offer us, and abandon those that don't hold up to this scrutiny, the efficacy of our spiritual practices could be strengthened, and some of the cosmology-based differences between us could be bridged.


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    Thursday, September 15, 2005

    A Pagan Response to Katrina 


    Look what I found in this morning's New Heaven New Earth digest:

    A PAGAN RESPONSE TO KATRINA
    By Starhawk

    As Pagans, as worshippers of nature, how do we respond to an event like Hurricane Katrina, one of the most destructive natural disasters in the history of the United States? What does it mean to 'worship' something that, with one breath, can wipe out a major city? Do we see this as punishment, retribution for some Pagan sin? As an object lesson in the reality of climate change and global warming? As an overheated Goddess batting away some of the oil rigs contributing to her fever?

    Of course, no one can speak for all Pagans. There is no overall Council of Pagan Thealogy to hand down an official dogma. But here is my own answer, as a priestess, teacher, writer, activist and thealogian.

    Pagan religions are not punishment systems. We don't worship Gods of retribution, but a Goddess -- or Gods and Goddesses -- of mystery, in many aspects. The Goddess has immense power, both creative and destructive: the power that pushes a root out from a tiny seed and sends its shoot reaching for the sky, the power of the earthquake and the volcano, the rain that feeds the crops and the hurricane. We respond to that power with awe, wonder , amazement and gratitude, not fear.

    The great powers of nature have an intelligence, a consciousness, albeit different in magnitude and kind from our own. Everything in nature is alive and speaking: the deep, crystalline intelligence of the rock heart of the planet, the fungal threads that link the roots of trees into the nerve-net of the forests, the chattering birds and the biochemistry of plants and mushrooms are all communicating. Our spiritual practice, the practice of magic, is about opening our eyes, ears and hearts to be able to hear, understand, and communicate back. And those powers want us to communicate with them. The Goddess is not omnipotent -- she is co-creative with human beings. She needs human help to create fertility and regeneration. The elements, the ancestors, the spirit beings that surround us want to work with us to protect and heal the earth, but they need our invitation.

    Nature is also human nature. Our human intelligence, our particular, sharp-pointed ability to analyze, think, draw conclusions and act, our esthetic/emotional capacity to thrill at a beautiful sunset, our deep bonds with those we love and our empathy and compassion for others, are all aspects of the Goddess Herself. Indeed, she evolved us complicated, contradictory big-brained creatures precisely to experience some of those aspects. Or to put it simply, she gave us brains and she expects us to use them.

    As a Witch, as a priestess of the Goddess, I make daily time to meditate and listen, ideally in some place where I have direct contact with nature. I rarely use an indoor altar any more -- instead I sit in the woods, or at least, in my garden, quiet my thoughts, open my eyes, look and listen. And what I've been hearing lately, in company with every other person I know who is in tune with the deep powers of the earth, is anguish, distress, deep rage, and dire warnings. The processes of environmental destruction, in particular, the overheating of the earth's climate, are already underway. A few weeks ago, when we were preparing for the Free Activist Witch Camp that Reclaiming, our network of Witches, offered in Southern Oregon, I asked, "Is there any way to avert massive death and destruction." The answer I got was an unequivocal 'no'.

    "The process has gone too far," was the answer. The image that came to me was river rafting and shooting the rapids. There was a point where we as a species could have chosen a different river, or a different boat, or a different channel. But now we're in the chute. We can't turn back. We can't stop.

    There's a command in river rafting, used in extreme situations: "Paddle or die." If you paddle, you have some power -- not enough to change the flow of the river, but enough to steer a course and avoid crashing on the rocks. If you give up, the river will most likely flip your boat, and you will drown.

    When we emerged from the woods, a little-reported item in the news media, hidden away on the back pages, informed us that vast stretches of the tundra were melting in Siberia. If we were collectively using even a minimum of our human intelligence, this news should have been trumpeted on the front page with all the alarm of a terrorist attack, for it is far more dangerous.

    Global warming increases the intensity of storms. Turn up the fire under a pot of water, and the bubbles will be bigger, faster and stronger. Hurricanes draw their energy from the heat in seawater. The Gulf of Mexico is abnormally warm -- and hurricanes have doubled in average intensity in the last decade and a half. Hurricane Katrina was a natural phenomenon, but Katrina's progression from a Category Two up to a Category Five as she crossed the gulf was a human-caused phenomenon, a function of our choices and decisions, our failure to steer a different course.

    The forms and names we put on Goddesses, Gods, and Powers help translate those forces into terms our human minds can grasp. And so the Yoruba based traditions that originate in West Africa have given the name 'Oya' to the whirlwind, the hurricane, to those great powers of sudden change and destruction. Santeria, candomble, lucumi, voudoun, all include Oya in some form as a major orisha, a Great Power. Offerings are made to her, ceremonies done in her behalf, priestesses dance themselves into trance possession so that she can communicate with directly with the human community.

    No city in the U.S. has more practitioners of these traditions than New Orleans. On the night the hurricane was due to hit, I made a ritual with a small group of friends to support the spiritual efforts that I knew were being made by priestesses of Oya all over the country. We were in Crawford, Texas, at Camp Casey, where Gold Star mother Cindy Sheehan, whose son was killed in Itaq, camped near Bush's ranch to confront Bush with the painful reality of the deaths his policies have caused. Many of the supporters there were from New Orleans, worried about their homes, their friends and families. The overall culture of the camp was very Christian -- we found no natural opening for public Pagan ritual, although a number of people did indicate to me quietly that they were 'one of us.' But our little group gathered by the roadside, cast a circle, chanted and prayed.

    We prayed, speaking personally in the way humans do: " Please, Mama, we know what a mess we've made, but if there is any way to mitigate the death and the destruction, to lessen it slightly, please do." That same night Christians were praying and Orisha priestesses were 'working' Oya, and the hurricane did shift its course, slightly, and lessened its force, down to a Category Four.

    And New Orleans survived. Not without loss, and death, but without the massive flooding and destruction that was feared. We all breathed a sigh of relief.

    And a day later, the levees failed, and the floods came. They failed not from an Act of Goddess, but from a lack of resources. The Bush Administration had systematically cut funding for flood control and for repairing and increasing the strength of the levees. The money went to Iraq. Much of the Louisiana National Guard was also in Iraq. FEMA, the Federal Agency responsible for responding to natural disasters, had been gutted, defunded, refocused on terrorism, and its directorship given to a Bush
    political crony with no experience in disaster response.

    Now, weeks later, New Orleans remains under martial law. Official efforts at relief have ranged from inept to brutal, and the lack of planning and concern for human life, the punitive quality of the official response, seem deeply linked to prejudice and racism which devalues the lives of the poor, especially if they're black.

    But ordinary people of all faiths have responded to this disaster with caring and compassion, with massive donations and relief efforts, and with shock and rage at a government which so completely fails to embody the values of human decency and respect for life that it claims to represent.

    The Goddess does not punish us, but she also doesn't shield us from the logical consequences of our actions. Katrina's destructive power was a consequence of a human course that is contemptuous of nature. A Native American proverb says, "If we don't change our direction, we're going to wind up where we're headed." Katrina shows us a glimpse of that awful destination.

    And she also shows us hope. We can change, and if we truly awaken to the need, maybe we will, before it is too late. The outpouring of concern and efforts to help, the hope, determination and vision of some of the citizens of New Orleans who remain, the grief we feel for the dead and the losses and the compassion that a huge tragedy evokes are the tools we need to set a different course, one that honors nature and human life, that uses our human intelligence to restore and regenerate the natural world, awakens our compassion, and kindles our passion for justice. When we set a new course, all the powers of life and growth and regeneration will be flowing with us. And when we ally with those powers, miracles can happen.

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    SOME PAGAN RESOURCES:

    THE PAGAN CLUSTER -- the group of Pagan activists I work with, will be sending a team to the area in October. For information and donations, see .

    ......

    THE BLANKET PROJECT is an ongoing spell of compassion with the goal of providing handmade blankets to survivors, symbolizing the intention to blanket the country with compassion and caring. For information, see
    or email .

    ......

    E-WITCH PAGAN AUCTION

    Look for items marked NOLA PaganRelief
    I will be donating an original manuscript and a limited edition, signed, numbered leather-bound 10th Anniversary Spiral Dance

    .......

    HOUSING BOARD FOR PAGAN HURRICANE SURVIVORS and those who can offer housing
    .

    .......

    OFFICERS OF AVALON
    An organization of Pagan police officers and emergency service providers, they have already made one supply run to Mississippi, reports are on their webpage as well as information on how to donate.

    .......

    TEMPLE OF DIANA is accepting financial donations to be sent to the best organizations involved with hurricane relief efforts. Send your donations in any amount, and payable to Temple of Diana, with "hurricane relief" in the memo, and send to:
    Temple of Diana
    P.O. Box 6425
    Monona, WI 53716

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    SOME GENERAL PLACES TO SEND AID:

    REBUILD GREEN

    Hurricane survivors who have remained in the Algiers neighborhood of New Orleans are determined to remain, rebuild their city with environmental awareness and a social conscience. They have set up the first functioning medical clinic for ordinary people, and have other projects in hand. They desperately need funds.

    ......

    FAMILIES AND FRIENDS OF LOUISIANA'S INCARCERATED CHILDREN are doing intense work among the shelters and prisons with displaced youth, mostly African American. Believe me, the Red Cross and the Christian charities won't be pouring out relief to this group! They can also use some volunteers (especially African American) and many gifts in kind. Send a check to the "FFLIC Hurricane Relief Fund" to:

    920 Platt Street
    Sulphur, Louisiana, 70663



    ......

    THE VETERANS FOR PEACE BUS that was at Camp Casey in Crawford, TX has now gone down to Covington, Louisiana to do relief work. They also need donations of money and computer equipment.

    Make a donation to Veterans For Peace Chapter 116


    Tax deductible cash donations can be send to:

    Veterans For Peace Chapter 116
    28500 Sherwood Rd
    Willits CA 95490

    Cell PH 707-536-3001

    ......

    FOOD NOT BOMBS will be providing food for refugees. They can use volunteers to prepare and serve food, and, of course, donations. You can make a financial donation on line or mail checks to:

    Food Not Bombs
    P.O. Box 744
    Tucson, AZ 85702
    Please call (1-800-884-1136) or email us if you can join them on the bus or help with gas money.

    .......

    Starhawk Feel free to post, forward, and reprint this article for non-commercial purposes. All other rights reserved.

    Starhawk is an activist, organizer, and author of The Earth Path, Webs of Power: Notes from the Global Uprising, The Fifth Sacred Thing and other books on feminism, politics and earth-based spirituality, including the co-authoried Pagan Book of Living and Dying. All are available at . She works with Reclaiming , a network that offers training in earth-based spirituality and ritual. She teaches Earth Activist Trainings
    that combine permaculture design and
    activist skills, and works with the RANT trainer's collective that offers training and support for mobilizations around global justice and peace issues.

    Donations to help support Starhawk�s trainings and work can be sent to:

    ACT
    1405 Hillmount St.
    Austin, Texas
    78704
    U.S.A.

    To get her periodic posts of her writings, email
    and put �subscribe� in the subject
    heading.


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    Wednesday, September 14, 2005

    Thank You 


    Just popping in to say a heart-felt, if belated, thank-you to all for leaving such tender and compassionate notes about my brother's passing.

    And a special thank-you to Morgaine for offering your Creation Myth in response to my cosmology-no-show situation with the Lammas Issue of MatriFocus. It was a generous offer, and I was so deep into last-minute production matters (and finishing up my crossword puzzle for the issue) that I didn't have time to take you up on the offer and get it into the zine, and by then I was more deeply musing on the "meaning" of the situation and was working an editorial out of it.

    I think I've read your Creation Myth in the past. Is it online somewhere?

    At my Spiral Door intensive this past weekend I had the opportunity to explore grief and anger/rage about the many failures to respond appropriately to the survivors of the magnificent Katrina -- opporunities, both within ritual and without. I came away from that in more balance than I have been about what happened, and what didn't, and I also came away less tolerant of lies, all the lies, from the Bush administration and from groups and leaders in general. Not exactly sure how I'm going to act on that, but my behavior is probably going to look "inappropriate" occasionally. Oh well....

    I did get on a will-call list about a week ago for showing up to help refugees coming into Madison. What can I do? Not much, really, but I can do something useful. I'll be driving people around to do necessary shopping. It's not much, but it's what I can do and I feel good about helping even in such a small way.

    Intending to move through the pile of web projects and find more time for blogging. I miss it!

    xo xo xo xo xo xo


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    Friday, September 02, 2005

    Goodness and Mercy 


    My brother died, unexpectedly, yesterday. He got sick a week ago; they didn't know exactly what was wrong with him and still don't; his body just started shutting down and then he was gone. He had just retired (self-taught Unix guru; head of computer systems for the county courthouse, where he started out as a sheriff's deputy). He was 58.

    We weren't close in each other's daily lives. He was 7 years older than I and out of the house and my sphere by the time I hit puberty. He moved rather far away from the family, emotionally, sometimes moving closer in and then backing off again. He had a love/hate relationship with my mother. These kinds of relationships, off/on, love/hate, are not uncommon in my family, across several generations.

    We lived 1000 miles apart and didn't see each other too often, but as adults we had our moments of connection and our topics of mutual interest that made for a fondness and appreciation between us. We had an email relationship. He especially liked jokes (the kind of email I'm not particularly fond of receiving). We typically shared info about cousins, antiques, the stock market, and tech/web matters. Telephone contact was rare but connections were deep when we talked.

    Mainly, he was a big figure in my childhood. A magical figure, almost. Despite the 7-years-older-can-torment-the-younger-sisters reality, he was loving and in some ways a guardian. He brought magic into my life. He did science experiments, built and grew things, told ghost stories, painted glow-in-the-dark eyes in his upstairs domain to scare off (and fascinate) the younger sisters. He brought horse-riding into our family when he bought his first horse at 16 -- this act gave me a magical relationship with my horse, Sonny, who came along shortly after his beautiful horse Dixie joined us. He taught himself hypnosis and practiced it on his younger sisters and his willing friends. I'll never forget the time Al T picked up a tin of fish food and walked across the room with it on his head, all according to the post-hypnotic suggestion my brother made while he was in trance.

    He changed his name when he was in school (reversed the first and middle names), and when he learned my magical/pen/pagan name, Sage Starwalker, he started signing his emails as Buzz Planetpopper. LOL. There was a history of naming between us. He had a pet name for me when I was little, which I didn't particularly like. Perhaps that's because I called him Bubba from my earliest days and never gave up the practice. Once on a family vacation, as we were driving through Idaho and beginning to look for a place to spend the night, we passed through Chubbuck. I looked at my brother, laughed, and said "That's you! Chubbuck, Chubbuck, Chubbuck." I felt so superior for about five miles, until we drove into Pocatello. A "Chubbuck/Potojello" name fight broke out and grew from fun taunting to miserable jousting pretty quickly. My sense of superiority was not completely deflated, however. It was "pocatello" not "potojello," after all, and the name sounded nothing like mine, whereas the linguistic transformation from Bubba to Chubbuck was quite satisfying. The name-calling escalation didn't last long. Our parents put a stop to it. Quid pro quo plop. We spent the rest of our lives teasing each other, occasionally, with these names. I might miss never being called Potojello again....

    Bubba the magical person was an animal nut! He had lots of pets, of the standard variety (dogs) and the decidely uncommon (my cats slept with me, his pet snake slept with him). He was also an animal healer. Where that came from, I don't know, but he was doing animal rehab as a boy without training or any kind of support organization. I'll never forget "Lucky," the hawk with the broken wing. My brother found Lucky (I have vague memories of Lucky having been shot by a stupid kid with a bb gun, but the details are fuzzy), brought him home, had him in a cage for weeks and then up in one of our trees for more weeks before Lucky went on to whatever was next.

    My brother had a wide variety of jobs/careers in his life. He didn't make good grades in school (he had what they didn't diagnose or treat back then -- a learning disability), he didn't graduate from college, but he succeeded at whatever interested him. He had a couple of patents for disc storage systems. He became fascinated with passive solar design and built a house, by himself, that ran successfully all year between 72 and 78 degrees, without heating or air conditioning, in Texas. He sold it to a doctor who added on, built a pool, and lost the passive solar functionality. He felt more sadness about the loss of his design work than he did superiority to the doctor's salary-endowed ignorance. He spent a few years as a sheriff's deputy and shared stories with me of how he used his psychic senses to catch criminals in two separate instances in the same year. (His heroics roused the jealousy of the sheriff, who was up for re-election and not getting the kind of coverage in the local news that my brother was getting!) He also told me of saving a drowning child and said, all choked up, that this one act satisfied his deep question: "Have I done good in this life?"

    I did a reading last night that asked me to look for myself in his reflection and that indicated a strong metaphysical relationship and a weak/reversed earth-plane relationship. His role as guardian, then and now, was highlighted.

    Bubba was a Capricorn. He was a get-to-it and get-it-done, no nonsense kind of a guy. I have a sense that he's perfectly alright with having dealt with death so handily and without living through a long decline. Not that he's necessarily happy being gone, just that he's got a satisfied, intelligent smile on his face as if to say "That's how to do it, girls."

    My brother had a private, informed spirituality. He rejected organized religion and much of Christian mythology, but he took from his studies of Christian doctrine principles that informed how he thought about his life and how he lived it.

    I do wonder what kind of reunion he's having with mom on the other side. May they both be well and their relationship be healed. No doubt he's hanging out with his beloved grandparents, Lala and Pop, our dad, Harry, and a few buddies who went before him. I wonder if he and Cobi will connect over there.

    A candle is lit. Incense is burning. A red-tail hawk is soaring somewhere above the house and woods, his presence betrayed by his hunting whistle.

    Odd what comes back to you from childhood. This keeps running through my head this morning:

    "Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life...." (Psalm 23:6)


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